My Journey #LivingWhileSurvivingLife

So crazy thought I had today is "People will see the REAL you before you will ACKNOWLEDGE the REAL you" Basically saying that a person can truly love you for who really are even when you do not know who you really are. That's a crazy thought isn't it?! Yes I know, you ask how is that possible, well think about it your parents are a prime example of someone loving you for who you really are without you even knowing who you are. I bring this up because I have had many people come in and out my life and only get to know the person I show, but never learned anything about the woman I am beneath the surface. Well I had a one person that showed me this acknowledgement and 3 years ago he passed away. Today I decided to talk about a friendship that I have been having a hard time to put into words since he passed because this death was a hard one and I mean really hard one. On this very day, he was laid to rest and I think it's time to tell the world how he always ha...

It's been a minute since I sat in front of this laptop to write about any topic at all. Well life has been really kicking butt lately and last week was the week of demon hell; Lord knows I truly was not ready for it. So here goes the story of my nightmare: I woke up Monday morning to do my normal things I do everyday; I got dressed, got my daughter dressed, then took her to back to my room to hang with my wife while I got her breakfast ready. Well in the few minutes of me being downstairs my child fell off my high bed and fell on the floor. I heard the screaming and I panicked. Well long story long this started the whole feeling of being the "Worst Mother" ever; my daughter's eye wasn't opening. So we took her to the Emergency room, I am trying not to cry, and my wife is doing the same. We get there and they look at her then do a CT on her head. All that to tell me my daughter has a fracture in her skull and now we have to be transferred to the hospital for ...

So life has been upside down lately and I mean literally upside down. I have been going and going/ ripping & running nonstop since Monday of last week to say the least. Which brought me to this post I'm currently writing because i have so much in my mind to get out. Well I wrote a post this week about checking in on your strong friends because they are not always strong. Truthfully sometimes they are weaker than they might want to let off. But anyways, today's post will be talking on this but going to another aspect of this. In my life, I am known as the strong friend the one that everyone comes to and leans on, but recently I have hit E. I am completely empty... I have nothing to pour into anyone else because truthfully I cannot refill myself. I have been holding so many down and lifting them up that I have nothing left to give and I am wondering who is going to come refill me. I have been feeling overwhelmed and drained. I have had so much going on around me that pe...