My Journey #LivingWhileSurvivingLife

I have been really thinking more and more about my mental state; I find that when it comes to talking about my feelings I shut down. Being vulnerable is not something that is easy for me, but if I am honest I have some real things in my mental that I need to truly let out. I know at one point and time I have talked about some feelings dealing with some issues in my life, but now I see that I have to go deeper than all that. Most say that I need to write more privately but I feel that what I am dealing with and my processing can help others so this is why I share so much. With that being said, I am about to talk about some things that I have never really discussed because I feel like things are tormenting me mentally and it's time to release it. I do not see myself the way everyone sees me, I really do not see this person everyone says I am. I tear myself down all the time from the beginning of my day until the end of my day. I overthink everything, fear failure, and I even second g...

So it's been a minute since I have wrote anything in this blog and today I think it's time to write because my mental is overloaded; I guess it's time to release. Let me be transparent here, this will be a dump of so many events and emotions that I think I never really processed or expressed. I have been in a mental state for sometime but I have never really thought about how bad it was until recently because I think I like to deny how I am honestly feeling. I have been facing many different moments and lessons over again that I probably did not learn from the first time, but now I think I am learning a lot and I'm over the lessons. But here goes some transparency on another level... So I know that I touched on somethings in passing that I have been dealing with lately but I have not be going in depth about my mental; I have been really having challenging times mentally and I really do not know how to handle it at times. Yes, life happens and things go on that you canno...

It's been so long since I have been in this blog of mine and just wrote out my thoughts and feelings. Life has been going and going; sometimes its going good and sometimes life throws crazy curve balls. I mean I have realized that I have come a long way but unfortunately sometimes your emotions will cause your mental to want to go backwards. So my shift happened back in May, I mean Mother's Day weekend to be exact. My aunt passed away and I lost my job; then to top it off I ended up getting a C+ in one of my Master's classes that I needed to make an A in because of my GPA already being low. So like the saying says "When it rains, it pours"; but I must say that I have not been defeated, I have been down though.  I have been really proud of myself lately being able to not allow situations or circumstances to get me out of character. I also started the process of doing something that I have really wanted to do in life and that's teach. I have been studying like c...