My Journey #LivingWhileSurvivingLife

 I was asked the most interesting question recently and it was "Do you feel guilty, ashamed, or what are your feelings about your life right now?" I honestly had to think about it and when I did, I just was like, "I am at peace"; funny thing is I did not think I was at peace with my life and my circumstances because I am still facing new challenges each day, but I am honestly do have inner peace. You see, I have cried about my circumstance, I have asked so many questions, I have gotten really angry, but now I have reached this place of peace because I have found me.  Over the years, I have lost myself in all the things going on in my life, I lost my desire to want to be creative, to sing, and to do all the things that I love. I am the biggest nerd you would ever meet because I love to read books about any and everything, I like to sit outside and enjoy nature, I love to listen to all types of music, dance around being silly, and lastly I love to be creative. But wit...

 So it's been awhile since I have posted on this site and it has been so much going on. I know that I really should have been releasing some of this built up hurt. It's hard sometimes when you are surviving your world around you that you forget to actually try to heal or release in the process. I have been through a lot of changes in my life and some changes that I am still going through at this moment. But there has been some hurts that I have noticed I need to release to finally put a nail or two in the coffin that is my past.  So tomorrow would be my wedding anniversary and I would be celebrating 4 years and also 13 years off and on with this one person; a place of complacency and what I thought was my comfort. So you can imagine that lately my mind has been all over the place; but I think yesterday I hit my breaking point and I mean the place where I finally realize that I DESERVE all the great things that are happening to me right now.  For so many years, I honestly ...