My Journey #LivingWhileSurvivingLife

I have been processing that date for the past few days because I have been plagued with a thought that has me really wondering what happened that day. I think I have to be honest I really do not think that it was an accident at all. I have been processing so much going on lately and now I must break this day down to the fullest; here goes nothing... The day before my birthday started like any other day, I got up and went to get a facial done by a "so called" friend for free. She thought she would treat me to that and I was excited about it. I spent a few hours there, then I went to my house to get ready to go bowling. I was feeling weird that day because I was trying to force myself to be excited about my birthday but I was not really excited at all. My birthday weekend has not been something that I have really wanted to celebrate lately because of the fact that I was proposed to on that weekend by the person I am now divorcing. I find that I dread that weekend even though it...

So much been going on the last few days and I have been so busy with school, working out, and even some other things I have been focusing on; I almost missed the opportunity to write about somethings that I have realized about myself. Its been a lot I have had processing in my mind since I started this healing journey and I have been doing my best not to get overwhelmed with emotion.  I have had so much revealed to me in the past two weeks of this new year; plus I am finally doing the much needed work to heal and be real honest with myself. This journey I have been on with myself as been very tough one lately because of my sensitive but some of the lessons that have been coming back around have hurt a little more this time. It is crazy how the universe will bring a lesson back up to see if you will handle it different or would you still do the whole avoidance thing...  Have you ever sat down to start doing an inventory (shadow work) and the first name that comes to mind that y...