Ugh.. The Black Hole
I feel like I truly hide so much from people now a days because I truly hate to have conversations; but actually I have some serious insecurities and fears which is why I do not talk. I keep everything to myself because I find it to be easier, I really do not like to be vulnerable with people. i do not know why it is so much easier to write out things than to say them to someone but most of my life I have only been able to express my everything through writing. So these past few weeks in my black hole, I have been realizing more and more about my insecurities and how I have so many fears that people know nothing about. I really feel that I have gotten into a place that I have been able to mask everything from people, but I have some people in my life that can actually see right through me and my masks. Masking has become second nature to me that sometimes I do not even know that I am doing it, until I realize that I do not know how to get deeper with people or allow people to get ...