I'm... Not... Okay...
I am not okay.. The "I'm okay" button inside me is broken today and probably will not work tomorrow either. It's all catching up to me, literally everything, every emotion under the sun. I am losing my sense of understanding about things. I am starting to wonder if I really was okay before everything happened or if I have just been piling things on top of each other. On some days, you can go through the motions and continue to tell people "I'm fine", "Yeah I'm okay" and they can believe it until that one day they ask and those statements do not come of that way. Yes, today is that day for me. I am trying to say those phrases convincingly but I seem to be failing miserably. So much has hit me all at once today from so many angles that I literally feel myself trying to #SurviveLife. My anxiety and my emotions are all over the place, while my thoughts take over in my mind, then the tears come and do not stop. All the while I continue to tr...