Inner Peace/Finding Me

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 I was asked the most interesting question recently and it was "Do you feel guilty, ashamed, or what are your feelings about your life right now?"

I honestly had to think about it and when I did, I just was like, "I am at peace"; funny thing is I did not think I was at peace with my life and my circumstances because I am still facing new challenges each day, but I am honestly do have inner peace.

You see, I have cried about my circumstance, I have asked so many questions, I have gotten really angry, but now I have reached this place of peace because I have found me. 

Over the years, I have lost myself in all the things going on in my life, I lost my desire to want to be creative, to sing, and to do all the things that I love. I am the biggest nerd you would ever meet because I love to read books about any and everything, I like to sit outside and enjoy nature, I love to listen to all types of music, dance around being silly, and lastly I love to be creative. But with everything in life, I had lost it. 

Recently, I have found myself coming back full circle to what makes me HAPPY, which truthfully is ME! I love everything about my personality, about my individuality, and what makes me who I am; but for so long I have hidden so much because I hated to stand out. With this transition, I am finally embracing what makes me the great person I am; I am more than just a mother, daughter, and sister; I am Jessica. 

Finding me through all this has been the best thing ever because it brought back peace and joy; Joy is something that I have been really missing in my life lately. Do not get me wrong, I get a lot of happy from my children, but I was no longer getting happy from me and knowing that I can make it through any and everything.

My happy would always be temporary, but now I might have a moment but the next minute I am back smiling because I have finally found my inner peace, self-love, self-worth, and JOY! I have so much I have to celebrate and I cannot wait to really take out the time to celebrate me, my accomplishments, and everything I have overcame through this transition.

Until next time, I'll be enjoying #SurvivingLife

-Jess Lore'al

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