Life... Yes I'm Still Here

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 I feel like I do not even know how to navigate this blog anymore it's been that long. But hey, did you miss me? I know I have missed this. I have so much to talk about because in the past year life has been life and it got overwhelming. But let me start downloading, just so you are wonder this will be a long entry...

So let's start from the beginning, when I last wrote in here I expressed a lot about so much going on in my personal and love life; well i got major updates on that plus I had a mini stroke in May of 2023. Yes, you read that right, I had a mini stroke which was caused by a lot of stress and being overwhelmed from work and life. I was in middle of finishing my Master's, working full time at a school, and being a single mom (which I got some updates on that journey, but that's a blog of it's own). My stroke was a big eye opener for the fact that I honestly had lost control of how I handle my stress and that I really needed to rethink if I wanted to be a kindergarten teacher. Man, I had so much to think about at the end of that month.

June was a really rough month, that was also a JOYFUL month which was my Master's graduation. That was a big moment that I was not excited about at first but my TikTok framily made that day unforgettable (along with someone special); so that moment in time was AWESOME. I know you might be wondering why would you not be excited about this big moment in your life... Well let's be honest, it's because I feel like my DEPRESSION was in big wave at the time if I am being honest. I was so down about my graduation and being stressed about what am I going to do next? I also was thinking about all the different people that I have supported that thought nothing of me or my accomplishment.

Then July came and when I say that I had the greatest July ever, I had the greatest July ever. I got the job I have been working hard to get and it put me in the position that I needed for a lot of other things. I became a 3rd grade Math/Science Teacher, which I celebrated with someone special and also celebrated their birthday as well. I saw my classroom for the first time, and I shared that moment with my mother and with (I think y'all already know who, which a blog will come about that too). I enjoyed decorating and getting back to work because I really missed it.

August-October, school started which was my babygirl's first day of BIG GIRL SCHOOL; any mother can tell you that is emotional in itself but man I was more excited than anything. I started my new job as the 3rd grade teacher and meeting all my new students. I felt like I finally found the grade level that is meant for me even though I am not gonna lie, I kinda miss my littles but I'll see them in 3rd grade. 

Being a teacher is rewarding and I think many people do not realize how much of an effect teaching kids can have on you as a person, especially when you are already a mother. The most amazing thing is being a teacher to me because since I was younger I have wanted to be a teacher. I feel like the most impactful people in my life were my teachers and I want to make that same impact to the children I teach as well. 

Okay back to my update.... November was a tough month emotionally for me, because I got some hard truths about my babygirl. I was not ready to hear what I was told, but I knew I had to do what was best for my daughter. Again that is a whole blog entry of its own.

But look out for the blogs to follow, because this is still me #LivingWhileSurvivingLife...

-Jess Lore'al

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