My Journey #LivingWhileSurvivingLife

So crazy thought I had today is "People will see the REAL you before you will ACKNOWLEDGE the REAL you" Basically saying that a person can truly love you for who really are even when you do not know who you really are. That's a crazy thought isn't it?! Yes I know, you ask how is that possible, well think about it your parents are a prime example of someone loving you for who you really are without you even knowing who you are. I bring this up because I have had many people come in and out my life and only get to know the person I show, but never learned anything about the woman I am beneath the surface. Well I had a one person that showed me this acknowledgement and 3 years ago he passed away. Today I decided to talk about a friendship that I have been having a hard time to put into words since he passed because this death was a hard one and I mean really hard one. On this very day, he was laid to rest and I think it's time to tell the world how he always ha...

It's been a minute since I sat in front of this laptop to write about any topic at all. Well life has been really kicking butt lately and last week was the week of demon hell; Lord knows I truly was not ready for it. So here goes the story of my nightmare: I woke up Monday morning to do my normal things I do everyday; I got dressed, got my daughter dressed, then took her to back to my room to hang with my wife while I got her breakfast ready. Well in the few minutes of me being downstairs my child fell off my high bed and fell on the floor. I heard the screaming and I panicked. Well long story long this started the whole feeling of being the "Worst Mother" ever; my daughter's eye wasn't opening. So we took her to the Emergency room, I am trying not to cry, and my wife is doing the same. We get there and they look at her then do a CT on her head. All that to tell me my daughter has a fracture in her skull and now we have to be transferred to the hospital for ...

So life has been upside down lately and I mean literally upside down. I have been going and going/ ripping & running nonstop since Monday of last week to say the least. Which brought me to this post I'm currently writing because i have so much in my mind to get out. Well I wrote a post this week about checking in on your strong friends because they are not always strong. Truthfully sometimes they are weaker than they might want to let off. But anyways, today's post will be talking on this but going to another aspect of this. In my life, I am known as the strong friend the one that everyone comes to and leans on, but recently I have hit E. I am completely empty... I have nothing to pour into anyone else because truthfully I cannot refill myself. I have been holding so many down and lifting them up that I have nothing left to give and I am wondering who is going to come refill me. I have been feeling overwhelmed and drained. I have had so much going on around me that pe...

Depression Anxiety Bipolar Depression PTSD Multiple Personalities This list could go on and on with things that deal with mental health. But those things are not the only things that should be associated with Mental Health. People now a days think that if you have an issue mentally that's the only time you need to be concern or make sure that you keep positive energy around you. But that is all lies, your mental health is important, whether you have an issue or not. Your mind is a major part of your everyday life, it effects your movements and how you may or may not feel about the day when you wake up. The thoughts you think about yourself, situations around you, and just anything that could happen are all about of your mind. You could have positive thoughts and one bad thing happens then all of a sudden you are in a negative space mentally, or you could wake up in a bad place and stay there all day no matter how great your day my end up being. All of that is thing that can...

Hurt happens so often in many of our worlds, unexpectedly and sometimes we see it coming. Some hurt takes our breath away and then other times hurt can cut so deep we do not know how to get over it. All in all hurt is the worst thing we, as people, can say we experience, but yet we hold on to them. We have hurts that have hurts because they are so deeply rooted that most times we forget what even started the hurt we have. But my question is why do we hold on to the hurt? Why do we not try and heal? Why is it so hard for us not to carry the hurt around like a badge of honor? Truth be told, it's because we do not know how to heal. Yes we do not know how to heal. We know how to be hurt by things and hold on to them, but no one ever said this is how you heal and move forward in life. So we walking around with hurts trying to function as normal people, but truthfully we are just adding more hurt and pain on top of all the other hurt making the situation deeper and worse. Healing i...

That is such a loaded word that many do not truly get the meaning of or have a deeper understanding about because they do not really go deep into the process. So today I wanted to break it down, so that people can get why forgiveness is important; yes this will be hard to do at first but in due time it will become your way of life. So the cycle of forgiveness begins with a person hurting you in any shape or form; in most cases boyfriend, family, best friend, etc. Some people decide to not forgive and to hold a grudge, but do not realize that holding a grudge affects them more than the other person. You wanna know how? I'm glad you do because here is the breakdown. You holding a grudge about whatever it maybe, that means you are harboring anger and resentments that are going to eat at your soul. With those things eating away at you slowly, you start to think everyone else that comes in your life is like that person or those individuals that you are mad at and you ruin new relati...

So many nights we overthink our days and we spent most of our time stressing about things we cannot fix or explain. We have so many outside things that go on that add on to our everyday struggles and worries. We start to either stress eat, become very anxious, or it starts to depress us. Stressing becomes so normal that we do not notice that we are stressed out, or that we have become overwhelmed with everything. As people, we do not ever figure out how to process life or to cope with those things we seem to not be able to handle. Well for me, I found writing was the key. Expressing feelings and making sure I got them off my mind and on paper made me free from the thoughts/ anxiety that took over me. Stress for me caused so many problems that I had to learn how to handle it before it handled me. I was a poetry writer, well I am still a poetry writer I just keep that part of me to myself. I loved to write poems based off my feelings and what had me feeling a way because it gave me...