Selfish Friends Bad For Mental Health
Soo have you ever felt like you need so many mental health days that you cannot find the time for. Man, I am going to let you in on a little secret; that's where I am at right now. I mean I have been breaking down so much that has gone on in my life these past few months and now I am seeing things I did not allow myself to see before. It's like having blinders removed from my eyes, mind, and heart; I have been really seeking to see the people around me for who they really are. Sometimes you should be careful and mentally ready for what you ask for.
I have been breaking down how I have been functioning in friendships and how people in friendships with me have been functioning; I'm starting to notice a major difference with a lot of friends. It's crazy to me though because they way I treat people is exactly how I wished people would treat me. But sadly, a lot of my "Friends" are selfish human beings; which brings me to why I needed another mental health day.
I have really been thinking about those who call me friend and if they know the true definition of the word friend. Like do they not realize friendship is a two way relationship meaning give and take, and not just a take and take situation? Like do they realize they are supposed to be there for their friends or do the expect the friend to do all the work? Questions I have been asking myself a lot lately.
I mean so much is going on with me from Trying to Conceive to Death in my family and I honestly can count on one hand how many of my "Friends" really have been there for me. Not pretend to be there because they wanted to slyly talk about themselves and turn the conversation to what they are going through. I mean genuinely there for me to lean on. I am truly tired of one sided situations which is part of the reason I had the mental break down before; people sucking me dry of all I have to give.
You know what really sucks, is not being able to share things you have going on or positivity with some of them because it will be made about them and something they want me to do for them. Its like I have to live in secret from someone I thought was in my corner only to right now see the only corner their in is SELF. Dealing with those kind of people when you already have some things you try to mentally maintain, is really hard. Everyday is a battle truthfully.
But I am still out here #SurvivingLife
-Jess Lore'al
I have been breaking down how I have been functioning in friendships and how people in friendships with me have been functioning; I'm starting to notice a major difference with a lot of friends. It's crazy to me though because they way I treat people is exactly how I wished people would treat me. But sadly, a lot of my "Friends" are selfish human beings; which brings me to why I needed another mental health day.
I have really been thinking about those who call me friend and if they know the true definition of the word friend. Like do they not realize friendship is a two way relationship meaning give and take, and not just a take and take situation? Like do they realize they are supposed to be there for their friends or do the expect the friend to do all the work? Questions I have been asking myself a lot lately.
I mean so much is going on with me from Trying to Conceive to Death in my family and I honestly can count on one hand how many of my "Friends" really have been there for me. Not pretend to be there because they wanted to slyly talk about themselves and turn the conversation to what they are going through. I mean genuinely there for me to lean on. I am truly tired of one sided situations which is part of the reason I had the mental break down before; people sucking me dry of all I have to give.
You know what really sucks, is not being able to share things you have going on or positivity with some of them because it will be made about them and something they want me to do for them. Its like I have to live in secret from someone I thought was in my corner only to right now see the only corner their in is SELF. Dealing with those kind of people when you already have some things you try to mentally maintain, is really hard. Everyday is a battle truthfully.
But I am still out here #SurvivingLife
-Jess Lore'al
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