"Friends" Praying Against You
Thoughts overtake my mind sometimes when I think about all the different people I have encounter in my life. From elementary school on into adulthood... Surprisingly I only have a few that have made it with me all the way to this point. I guess that's because of what is on my mind tonight....
So called "Friends" praying against me...
I have always been an extra friendly person and I mean really friendly; I love meeting new people and making new friends. But truthfully that's a blessing and a curse; well this one time in particular it was really a curse.
I had came in contact with a female that I thought I could build a strong friendship with, get to know, and make a lot of memories. I thought I could share my life with her and have the type of friendships I am use to having with the REAL friends I have around me. Well I am here to tell you I was wrong and I mean DEAD WRONG.
So long story short, I had befriend a WOLF and I mean a real WOLF in sheep's clothing. She literally was praying against me, my marriage, and anything I had going on while being in my face speaking something so different than what she really feel. Let me tell you I believed that she was my friend, but she used me, lied to and on me, and then was in my presence HATING me.
As people, we never know who we have around us or why things are not going a way we want, but then certain people disappear then life starts to go back to normal blessings on blessings. Well this was my life last year, for awhile things were off and going a way they would not normally go but when this one particular friend removed themselves; I noticed that the things I desired started happening left and right. I did not put two and two together until I found something that taught me the biggest lesson of my adult life. I cannot trust/believe everyone and the intentions they claim they have.
I was cleaning out this area of my house this particular friend stayed in while living with me (yes she was living with me) and I found a journal. In this journal, I found nothing but HATRED towards me, yes HATRED towards me; I was in disbelief because I had literally done more for her in the few months that I had none her than I had done for friends I had known for YEARS. She wrote about me in a manner like I did something to hurt her or I had destroyed her life.
She was declaring evil, hurt, brokenness, and even discord over my life. She called her self praying I failed at EVERYTHING in life. The hurt I felt in that moment was unreal because me wanting to see the good in people I believed her words that she told me, when truthfully I should not have. I had never experienced a "friend" doing this to me, but this situation got worse as time went on. It went from talking about me in a journal while living with me rent free to talking about me on Facebook after I was blocked. This was all crazy to me!
I bring this all up because today as I am doing something for a pregnant friend of mine, she is outpouring so much appreciation for all that I do. She spoke of me just being me, a good friend, like it was such a rare blessing in her life at this time.
Genuine appreciation poured for something completely minor for a person versus genuine hate for doing something really major for a person.
Friendship is something that we, as people, value a lot because those are the ones we count on in a time of need. Make sure you truly watch who you befriend because you never know you might think they are your closest friend, but really they are your biggest ENEMY.
Until next time, I will be out here #SurvivingLife.
-Jess Lore'al
So called "Friends" praying against me...
I have always been an extra friendly person and I mean really friendly; I love meeting new people and making new friends. But truthfully that's a blessing and a curse; well this one time in particular it was really a curse.
I had came in contact with a female that I thought I could build a strong friendship with, get to know, and make a lot of memories. I thought I could share my life with her and have the type of friendships I am use to having with the REAL friends I have around me. Well I am here to tell you I was wrong and I mean DEAD WRONG.
So long story short, I had befriend a WOLF and I mean a real WOLF in sheep's clothing. She literally was praying against me, my marriage, and anything I had going on while being in my face speaking something so different than what she really feel. Let me tell you I believed that she was my friend, but she used me, lied to and on me, and then was in my presence HATING me.
As people, we never know who we have around us or why things are not going a way we want, but then certain people disappear then life starts to go back to normal blessings on blessings. Well this was my life last year, for awhile things were off and going a way they would not normally go but when this one particular friend removed themselves; I noticed that the things I desired started happening left and right. I did not put two and two together until I found something that taught me the biggest lesson of my adult life. I cannot trust/believe everyone and the intentions they claim they have.
I was cleaning out this area of my house this particular friend stayed in while living with me (yes she was living with me) and I found a journal. In this journal, I found nothing but HATRED towards me, yes HATRED towards me; I was in disbelief because I had literally done more for her in the few months that I had none her than I had done for friends I had known for YEARS. She wrote about me in a manner like I did something to hurt her or I had destroyed her life.
She was declaring evil, hurt, brokenness, and even discord over my life. She called her self praying I failed at EVERYTHING in life. The hurt I felt in that moment was unreal because me wanting to see the good in people I believed her words that she told me, when truthfully I should not have. I had never experienced a "friend" doing this to me, but this situation got worse as time went on. It went from talking about me in a journal while living with me rent free to talking about me on Facebook after I was blocked. This was all crazy to me!
I bring this all up because today as I am doing something for a pregnant friend of mine, she is outpouring so much appreciation for all that I do. She spoke of me just being me, a good friend, like it was such a rare blessing in her life at this time.
Genuine appreciation poured for something completely minor for a person versus genuine hate for doing something really major for a person.
Friendship is something that we, as people, value a lot because those are the ones we count on in a time of need. Make sure you truly watch who you befriend because you never know you might think they are your closest friend, but really they are your biggest ENEMY.
Until next time, I will be out here #SurvivingLife.
-Jess Lore'al
What's done in the dark will always come to the light. I am glad you didn't let that experience change your kindheartedness.
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