Journey Continued...

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So today has been a productive day and I say that with a lot of pride because I actually did a lot. I am trying to create new habits in my lifestyle, so that I can continue to better myself. One thing that I have found to be hard in the past is Self Care; I do not know why that has been so hard for me, but this year I want to make that apart of my regular routine. 

Like today, I got up I did school work, started my liquid cleanse, and even worked out (Surprisingly, I did everything I was planning to do) and I am so proud of myself because truthfully I never thought I would really stick to the changes I want to make in my life. But then again it is only day 3 and habits take about 10 days to stick so we will see if I am still doing all this in another 7 days. 

But on to other things, I am feeling like my mindset about life has changed so much in the past year. I have really overcame a lot in my life and I know that I have so much more to do on this journey; I am excited about all the things that I am doing to continue creating this platform for women. I am really hoping that this platform helps someone see that no matter what is going on in life they can continue on no matter what. 

I have so many great things that are going to happen this year, I have already started mentally planning my Master's graduation announcement pictures. I am mentally thinking about what I want to do, where I want to celebrate, who I want to invite, because 6 months will pass by so fast and I cannot wait truly. I have been through a lot in this journey to my degrees and now I am on the finish line for not just the 1 degree but now I am getting the 2nd degree. 

This is big for me because I have given up so many times on this journey, I felt defeated so many times and thought I wouldn't make it here, and now I will be able to say "I MASTERED IT" in 6 months. I feel like this will be something I am talking about and counting down to because I did that. 

But in other news, my mental health has been getting stronger and I have been doing well in the body dysmorphia part as well. I feel that because of me changing my mindset I have a better thought process about my body image and my weight. I feel like I look amazing, my thighs are thicker, my butt has gotten bigger (I mean that I will never be mad about), and my only thing is I want my stomach to be a little more toned. I take full body pictures and smile about them, I wear shorts and I love the way I look; I honestly buy things just so I can try them on and take pictures. I have never been this comfortable in my own skin, but for some reason now I truly LOVE THE SKIN I AM IN! 

Over the years, I have been really self-destructive but now I am starting to stop myself from spiraling or I will at least reach out to people that know me well enough to help prevent that from happening. I really am grateful for my tribe, Lord knows I need them. 

But until next time, I will be #SurvivingLife...

-Jess Lore'al

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